Peaches and Plums

by Lauren Fairweather

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eviedzomba LOVE this album so much! The keys on each track are so complimentary & Lauren's witty lyrics lend themselves perfectly to The Magicians cast of characters. Hard to pick a favorite track when they are all this good. :) Favorite track: Niffin.
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llgirlrep1022 Hard, Glossy armor is such a mood! As a young woman with childhood trauma and related c-ptsd, this song really speaks to me, and some of the struggles I have been working through (and the slow progress I have been making) in therapy since August of 2019. Thank you SO MUCH for creating something I can see myself in! Favorite track: Hard, Glossy Armor.
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1.
Escape 03:59
This desk saved my life This is where they were written The words that kept me alive My brain breaks sometimes Then I find myself reaching For those familiar spines When I get lost inside the pages I just feel all of my pain melting away At least for the day Chorus I just need a good fantasy To help me cope with this agony Take me out of this moment And let the magic carry me So even when my heart aches And I’m not in the best shape I can reach for a well-worn book To give me an escape Will this time be my downfall? Feeling like I’ll be crushed Under the weight of it all But somehow, you got through To a world that was waiting For someone just like you I can’t wait to get to the good part You gave me hope that it gets brighter ‘round the bend If I hold on ‘til the end Chorus When you grow up You don’t have to give up What you loved when you were younger Chorus
2.
I just met this guy, he’s kinda shy Asked me “Where the hell am I” You’re upstate and you’re late You’re not hallucinating “Great” Follow me, find a seat And don’t you dare flunk out on me Hey, you’re kind of strange, look at that name Here’s another costume change Oh hell yes, you passed the test Now come along and see the rest I can’t be sure, but I think you’re The interruption I’ve been waiting for I can’t stop my eyes from wandering When you walk into a room Can you tell I’ve got a painful crush on you? But I’m not gonna say Cause my heart is gonna break Not gonna say Cause you’d say no anyway But I could swear There’s something there Except you’re probably straight I might be falling for you But I’m not gonna say Q, you’re pretty cute, shaking in your boots I wanna get you in your birthday suit You get this look and I am hooked When you talk about those books So I flirt. It couldn’t hurt I can’t resist an introvert Huh. You caused a fuss, come home with us You didn’t tell me you were dangerous You’ve been expelled, and I can tell That you’re not taking it so well You share your past, and I bond fast I put my darkest secret on blast Then I offered to seduce you In case that memory would suffice And you thanked me after you said “that sounds nice” But I’m not gonna say Cause my heart is gonna break Not gonna say Cause you’d say no anyway I hope you know You’re not alone Some magic comes from pain I think I’m falling for you But I’m not gonna say Guess it all turned out okay cause You found us grilling in the rain And the face you made when I called out your name I’m not gonna say That I thought of you all day Not gonna say That I’d hoped you’d get to stay I know you’ll mean A lot to me Until we’re old and gray I’m so damn into you But I’m not gonna say I’m just enjoying the view But I’m not gonna say Yeah I’m still falling for you But I’m not gonna say
3.
Yeah, I finally figured out How you erased and tossed me out And you couldn’t make me forget You haven’t seen the last of me yet I’m done waiting I am shaking Won’t go back to who I was I’m heading out Can’t wear me down You will regret you gave me up Leave and desert me You can’t hurt me You can’t hurt me Your words go right through me You can’t hurt me You can’t hurt me I’m burning, burning I’m burning But I’m learning, learning, I’m learning Don’t try to find me You can’t have me You can’t hurt me anymore Cracked their puzzles easily Then magic came looking for me Flashing lights and tattooed stars And goddesses erasing scars Now I’ve made it The freight train is Coming, this was a mistake Wanted to belong Not just to be strong And then it you took it all away Leave and desert me You can’t hurt me You can’t hurt me Your words go right through me You can’t hurt me You can’t hurt me I’m burning, burning I’m burning But I’m learning, learning, I’m learning Don’t try to save me You can’t help me You can’t hurt me anymore When we were underground I finally let go I’ve been stuck in between For so damn long The fear is gone The anger’s gone The pain is finally gone Leave and desert me You can’t hurt me You can’t hurt me Your words go right through me You can’t hurt me You can’t hurt me I’m glowing, glowing, I’m glowing Now I’m growing, growing, I’m growing You know where to find me If you need me You can’t hurt me anymore
4.
Niffin 04:57
When it was over I dove down deep into the earth I liked it down there after I left behind all of the hurt Flew into space and I jostled stars on my way up Nothing could take me down So I spent a week inside the sun You know how good I used to be So worried what people thought of me But way out there I could just be Chorus: When I turned blue I laughed, I got the joke at last And it’ll never stop being funny Why’d you bring me back, won’t you change me back Did you think I’d be grateful, honey Cause you took away the power I had You could never even fathom all the power I had Oh wuh uh oh, wish I could go Back to being a niffin I slid backwards in time Saw how the world began I made beautiful magic That you will never understand I’d fly for days And never feel worn out or bored I still have so much of the Universe left to explore Want you to know what you took from me Billions of wonders I’ll never see I’m begging you to set me free Chorus At least I’ve got bacon, is that enough Took a hot bath, but is that enough Guess I’ll have sex, was that enough I’ll need some more, just to make real sure Put on fresh socks, is that enough Had a real big sneeze, was that enough Now I’ve had chocolate, and that’s enough You wore me down, guess I’ll stick around
5.
We wake up every day And we make art Capture the beauty of life Then we take it apart And I don’t know If it’s a spell that you’re casting But you’re so hot That it is kind of distracting And I’m pretty sure That I want a whole lot more Than what I came here looking for I just had to kiss you I couldn’t hide it anymore Cause the way you’re looking at me Makes me fall flat on the floor I’m overthinking But I have to follow through Cause I’m glad we’re here together And I want to be with you Decades went by We built a wonderful life I watched you become a dad I buried you when you died Did that happen Cause it’s all coming back In a matter of seconds There’s so much to unpack here But all I know As we sit in the afterglow Is that I’d give it another go I just had to tell you I couldn’t hide it anymore The years we had were beautiful And I want fifty more We became a family El, I think we always were Who gets that proof of concept Just say yes and I’ll be yours I thought I’d lost you I thought that you were gone for good Then you said we had proof of concept Like I’d always hoped you would And I’m not sure if that Means you love me, but I know That I can’t live without you Even if I’m just friends with you And El, even if it kills me I will fight to bring you home
6.
Braver 05:15
I am trapped in my memories Reliving my deepest regret Then it finally hit me The one that I tried to forget When someone good and true loved me And he went out on a limb I pretended it didn’t matter Snuffed it right out and watched it break him The truth is I was afraid And when I am afraid I run away So I ran away Cause you are more Than I felt like I deserved Wish I had been braver Why couldn’t I be braver And if I get One more chance to tell you how I feel Next time I’ll be braver You taught me to be braver Did you know that I loved you That day we first laid out the tiles All the peaches and plums we could eat No signs of danger for miles In a whole other lifetime We grew old, had a family at that You and me, we worked for 50 years Who gets proof of concept like that I hate that I was afraid But now I finally have the guts to say I’d choose you any day Cause you are all I could ever want and more Wish I had been braver Why couldn’t I be braver And if I get One more chance to tell you how I feel Next time I’ll be braver You taught me to be braver If I ever get out of here, Q Know that when I’m braver It’s cause I learned it from you x4 Cause you are more than I felt like I deserved Wish I had been braver Why couldn’t I be braver And if I get one more chance to tell you how I feel Next time I’ll be braver You taught me to be braver Cause you are all I could ever want and more Wish I had been braver Why couldn’t I be braver And if I get one more chance to tell you how I feel Next time I’ll be braver You taught me to be braver If I ever get out of here, Q Know that when I’m braver It’s cause I learned it from you
7.
My Dad taught me I could be anything when I was a kid But be loud or pissed off And the world shot back “Who does she think she is” He saw what he raised A woman he could no longer control Who didn’t seek approval Nothing deadlier to the fragile male ego Put my hard, glossy armor on Step back I’ve got my hard, glossy armor on Chorus: I’m not a goddamn princess I’m a king and no less King of I can’t do this High King of He Was Right King of manipulation King who ruins everything King of pointless rage Who’s not giving up this fight I’m angry every second My eyes are open cause I’m forced to see That I know who I am And I’m not what I am pretending to be I always hit first And if they hit back they learn I can’t be touched Under all this armor I’m here wondering why does it hurt so much With my hard glossy armor on Step back, I’ve got my hard glossy armor on Chorus Here goes, I’ve got my hard glossy armor on Step back, I’ve got my hard glossy armor on Yeah I’ve still got my hard glossy armor on Watch out, I’ve got my hard glossy armor on I’m not a goddamn princess I’m a king and no less King of I can do this High King of step aside King of befriending demons King of getting shit done King of hitting home runs I’m gonna be just fine King of forging axes King of kicking asses King’s collecting taxes Back off, you’ve crossed the line King of helping women King of breaking your plans I’m taking you down And I’m taking back what is mine

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Peaches and Plums is a queer love letter to the fantasy genre. This album features seven heartfelt acoustic pop songs about finding your inner power in the face of remarkable pain, even if it means losing it again. Songs about the kind of love that spans across timelines, that pulls people together even when the world is forcing them apart. Songs about magic.

Lauren Fairweather takes on the perspectives of five highly relatable characters in her endeavor to investigate the emotion behind their defining moments in The Magicians Trilogy by Lev Grossman and its television adaptation.

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released October 2, 2020

Written, performed, and recorded by Lauren Fairweather. Piano by Mike Stein. Bass and electric guitar by j.ferguson. Backing vocals by BAE SZN, Audrey Wagner, and Matt Maggiacomo. Mixed and mastered by j. ferguson for Pitch & Prose. Album artwork by Evelyn Rogers.

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