A love letter to the fantasy genre from a depressed super-nerd. This song is inspired by Quentin Coldwater from The Magicians, who I greatly relate to.

This is a one-take recording, which is why I'm offering it as a 'name your price' single. I'm saving up to have it recorded and produced for real someday, so anything you are able to contribute will be super appreciated.


This desk saved my life
This is where they were written
The words that kept me alive

My brain breaks sometimes
Then I find myself reaching
For those familiar spines

When I get lost inside the pages
I just feel all of my pain melting away
At least for a day

I just need a good fantasy
To help me cope with this agony
Take me out of this moment
And let the magic carry me

So even when my heart aches
And I’m not in the best shape
I can reach for a well-worn book
To give me an escape

Will this time be my downfall?
Feeling like I’ll be crushed
Under the weight of it all

But somehow, you got through
To a world that was waiting
For someone just like you

I can’t wait to get to the good part
You gave me hope that it gets brighter ‘round the bend
If I hold on ‘til the end


Instrumental Break

When you grow up
You don’t have to give up
What you loved when you were younger



from The Magicians Sessions, track released March 20, 2020
Written and performed by Lauren Fairweather. Inspired by Lev Grossman's The Magicians and its TV show adaptation.




Lauren Fairweather Cranston, Rhode Island

Mostly acoustic indie songs about books, TV shows, and other fandom love.

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